“I had the feeling of being with a kindred spirit, a fellow sufferer, who was completely alone, who had only his work and who, after seventy years, woke up each morning to start afresh, regarding everything he had done as more or less a failure, an inaccurate rendering of his vision, a betrayal.” P. Theroux,
. Picture Palace
Back in “my home in the oldBefore I left I was not even that keen to go, afraid to leave the security I knew in
.” People don’t read Kipling anymore. It’s a pity, he's a great storyteller. You could wet yourself reading “The Village
that Voted the Earth was Flat.” But after six tumultuous weeks in American I
find myself again in Sudan Juba.
I convinced myself that there was no purpose to going home, nothing for me there except fast food and chocolate. I didn’t even look forward to seeing family and friends, aware that seeing people meant a constant whirl of travel and motion. In 2011 I relished the fact that I was going to step off the plane directly into the AFRECS convention and from there to missionary training in
The bigger problem with my going was that I had convinced myself that there was nothing for me back home, nothing that could match the excitement and purpose which my work in
While home I struggled to maintain my “Sudan-ness.” I rehearsed Arabic in my mind and felt guilty when asked to use prayers that differed from those we use in
I was pleased to find that my room remained intact. Before I’d left the Guest House manager had been suggesting he might have to move me around to complete “renovations” to our house, or more accurately “my” house since I am the last missionary here. Before I left the manager, who rarely hides his loathing for my existence for what he views as my “stealing” a room that he could otherwise lease out, had decided to use the other two rooms to house bishops that would be in Juba on long term assignment. This caused me to joke that my house was the “House of Bishops.”
Anyway, my room was intact as was the kitchen, which really pleased me. I was even able with great effort to save the refrigerator and gas cooker so I could continue to eat at home. But all of the living room furniture was removed, the comfy chairs and tables. “You don’t need them,” said the manager. I managed to squirrel a plastic table which I could use for dining and working but the manager came and took that away after a few days. “You don’t need this.” No renovations had been attempted.
They had somehow screwed-up the wiring while I was away. It used to be that we could switch from town power to generator power by throwing a switch. But while I was away someone had made it so we could not longer access town power, not the entire Guest House compound, just our house suffered this problem. Normally this was not a problem since for most of the past year there was no public power at the Guest House – or at our offices either which caused me to have to constantly scrounge for money to keep a generating going. But apparently since the anniversary of independence in July there had been a reasonable flow of town power, even to the Guest House. How frustrating it was for several nights after I returned being forced to sit in the dark while the rest of the Guest House was lit up. Finally after several days of complaining the manager had the problem fixed and I enjoyed one brief 36-hour period of town power, a short idyll before town power was exhausted and we were again limited to a few hours of power in the evenings.
I had managed to give away all of my chickens before I left. Sadly, nearly all of them have died, their new owners not taking the care of them that I did. My next-door neighbor James moved a small flock into my chicken coop during my absence, one rooster and a couple of hens. Mangy things. This new rooster is so much more annoying than the Bruce. Like the new fellow Bruce also would rip off a few crows around 5:00am each morning. But the Bruce would then have the decency to quiet down until closer to 7am before starting up again. But this new fellow just keeps at it all morning and more than once I’ve wanted to go out and wring his scrawny neck.
Settling back into life in